I woke up early this morning, which did not surprise me. I still do not know… actually, I do not feel much different than I normally do. The thought struck me this morning that this day has been coming for nearly six years now. These past three years of seminary have been in preparation for this day and the day in six months when I am ordained priest, Lord willing. So, in many ways, this is just the natural outcome of the past three to six years. Like graduation. I wasn’t nervous. I wasn’t anxious. It all happened too quickly for me to be sad. It was fun and exciting and wonderful to be with all the people with whom I have so closely lived and experience life over the past three years. I feel the same way today – I will be with Lisa and Elaine and we will be fulfilling that for which we have prepared these past years.
I tried praying this morning and nothing profound happened. I feel as if I should be having this mystical experience. Nothing much came. I am just here and there is not much more that I can do or be right now. Silence, perhaps. Just letting things be. Just let things be.