Thursday, 10 February 2003

I am once again in a quandary. I'm getting up at 6:00 am now, rather than 5:00 am, so that I can stay up a little later to accommodate Ashton's schedule. I'm finding that there simply isn't enough time in the morning to get everything finished and still have a good period of time for my quiet-time.

If there were no other considerations, I would certainly have a 5:00 am - 10:00 pm daily schedule, but there are other considerations. If I eat breakfast and leave by 7:45 am, after a shower and getting ready for the day, I'm left with about 30 minutes, which one would think could be enough time for prayer at least, but it isn't. I am having a hard time quieting myself and focusing, partly because I see a clock ticking away, partly, I'm sure, because I think about all that I have to do during the day. That isn't Ashton's fault, it is my lack of discipline and inability to quiet myself, but it is the case nevertheless. So, instead of spending time with God in prayer or even reading, I'm typing this and checking e-mail.

I would have it during the day, but I know myself well enough to know that probably won't happen, either. The solution is to just do it. Just sit down, focus, and pray. Thirty minutes of time with God in prayer and meditation is possible. I will simply have to plan on reading the Bible, for myself, during the day and disciplining myself to actually do it.

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