Journal - 11/26/01

Monday, 26 November 2001

Over the past few weeks, I've been trying to finish the re-design of the site, which means I've spent very little time keeping this version up-to-date. What frustrates me is that I can't seem to find a design I am satisfied with -- I have something that will do, but still isn't really want I want. I have been having a consistent quiet-time, but haven't been journaling but a little. There have been quite a few books I've started and finished, new CD's I've bought, and a many activities and events I've been up to that are not reflected in the different sections of this site. Plus, every thing revolving around Sept. 11th still isn't up -- just a pile of things waiting to be dealt with. Ugh!

One thing I concluded while driving home for Thanksgiving is that discipline has gone out the window in my life. It isn't that I don't do things I need to, but so much of what I want to do just isn't happening. I am watching too much TV. I am not consistent or diligent with my quiet-time, reading what I want to read, writing letters, calling friends and family, keeping my house the way I want to, working-out as I want to, eating how I want to, etc., etc.... I'm just not accomplishing and doing what I know I should in order for me to be satisfied with things. Of course, I am also doing things I would rather not. As Paul would say, "I do the things I don't want to do and don't do the things I want to do."

So, I am do setting out to bring discipline back into my life! I know I can do it, because I have before. It can be a slippery slope descending into slothfulness!